You can’t wait until you conquer your struggles to go to God. 
To encounter God’s realness to it’s full extent, you must be broken. 
And in that brokenness you fall at the feet of Christ, giving all that you are and all that you have. He’ll take your burdens and sacrifices and turn them into something beautiful. He is making something new out of you.
As a car runs on fuel, He made you to run on Himself (C.S. Lewis)

You are His beloved
I am His beloved.

He has ravished my heart

Good thing I have Jesus

(via grayskymorning)

I am so full of answered prayers! 
I have my best friend back and it can be explained by nothing else but answered prayers and the Lord’s blessing! 
Without his faithfulness it would have never happened!
Wow: joy, joy, joy

The enemy pursues me,
he crushes me to the ground;
he makes me dwell in the darkness
like those long dead.
(Psalm 143:3 NIV)

Abba, I need you. 
You’ve answered many of my prayers through situations I would have never guessed and for that I thank you times a million.
I request you to take away what is constantly eating me from the inside out. I ask you to break the chains of this struggle and I thank you that you know before I even ask. I thank you that when it’s too painful to mention or say aloud, and even in my mind, you know because you feel what I feel. I thank you, Abba, for the Holy Spirit who gives me power in my weakness. If I didn’t have the Spirit, Lord, I would never have enough strength to stand against my struggles.

I pray that I will have nothing to hold on to in this life. I pray that I’ll cling to you and you alone, able to walk away, no matter the deep pain, from my friends and family to follow where you lead. I pray you’ll set unquenchable fire in my heart for the broken. Like Isaiah, I wish for you to bind the broken and set the captives free through me. 

Again, Abba, I ask for you to take this struggle you are more than aware of away. I don’t see freedom from it, but that’s the beauty of your power! You will take it away in your time under your circumstances and I can feel you take it away day by day. But I’m not cured. I need you to heal me, Abba.

I love you Father. I love you so much. 

We need to talk Best Friend. 
I miss you lots.  

body-peace:

internal-acceptance-movement:

The idea of having a “perfect” body feels enticing.

It feels like the solution to our problems. 

But in truth, it only perpetuates them. 

We tell ourselves, “If I was thin, I would be happy”.

But we forget that the drive for thinness forces us to give up things essential to our happiness. 

Wearing a size 0, for me, means being weak, sick, and unable to participate in life.

It means not having a period or a personality.

It means being tired all of the time and not being able to think.

It means never laughing or smiling.

It means isolating and rejecting plans because they revolve around food.

It means missing out on opportunities and losing friendships.

The reality is that our pursuit of thinness and beauty cause us to lose so much more than weight.

We end up losing life.

Losing sight of the fact that we are beautiful exactly as we are.

That we are perfect in our imperfection.

True happiness doesn’t lie in the size of a body or a number on the scale. 

It’s found in the freedom to be ourselves.

It comes from friendship and laughter and love.

It comes from doing things that heal our hearts and nourish our souls. 

It’s time to let go of the desire for thinness.

And start holding onto the desire for life and all the possibilities it has to offer.

Your happiness is yours for the taking.

It starts with deciding that life is more important than a size.

It starts with choosing connection over perfection. 

And it starts with you. 

Amen

So my spirit grows faint within me;
my heart within me is dismayed. I remember the days of long ago;
I meditate on all your works
and consider what your hands have done. I spread out my hands to you;
I thirst for you like a parched land. Answer me quickly, Lord;
my spirit fails.
Do not hide your face from me
or I will be like those who go down to the pit. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go,
for to you I entrust my life. (Psalm 143:4-8 NIV)